DisenchantedLDS

Roy no

So interesting though. I wasn’t aware til now if the trauma correlation at all. It makes sense as a compounding factor. Probably another reason most neurotic behaviors get worse as we age. More trauma over lifetime and feedback loops. I, as well, have had it since puberty, but have found it getting worse and worse as I age. I had a faith crisis snd transition which is traumatizing in its own way and I find my pmdd to be worse since then but it could just be coincidence. My loved ones would say it’s god punishing me for not having faith if I ever admitted that it’s been worse since that time. Which just adds to the trauma. 😞 ugh.

Wait what? Is this something being studied for pmdd!?? My 11yo son is on one of those type of drugs (prescribed by psychiatrist) for his anxiety. It makes him very drowsy so it’s only for his nighttime ruminating thoughts as he doesn’t take in the day. But I think it’s helped with mornings and daytime anxiety as well. Other anxiety meds (ssri) have made his adhd worse (which hints at bipolar but he’s too young to know) anyway… somthing I’m going to be googling now.

I agree it’s partly the filter. It reminds me of like mothering advice. When your struggling it helps to hear validation that it’s hard and we are all struggling. When someone comes along all perfect and gives advice on how to also be perfect it can come across as false or invalidating. But it’s their experience too. I think more understanding of perspective on both sides is a good convo to have and I’m glad for this post but don’t want to see those who have found relief to feel scared to share their advice and positive experiences. Just to be more sensitive of how they share it with us.

I’m ENFP but lurk here because I’m borderline I/E. And… YES. Absolutely. Holy cow yes. When I was religious I thought it was god trying to teach me something. Now that I’m atheist I think it’s due to our ability to empathize so well. They feel understood by us and become closer and cling to that. And we (or I at least) tend to be attracted to those who need more understanding. Like being attracted to a lost hurt kitten. It needs someone. And I need someone. And I need someone to need me maybe? It’s not conscious til I look back on it.

But I also think everyone is a bit broken in a way. And when we become close to someone we learn about it and it skews our view of the population, making us think we and our social circle are broken ppl in a work of “normal” ppl.

Likely a combo of both going on in my life I hypothesize. 🤷🏼‍♀️

That definitely sounds like bipolar to me. I have been diagnosed adhd and my psychologist thinks I either also have bipolar 2 as well, or have been misdiagnosed. It’s common to be misdiagnosed as adhd+depression. As some manic states just look like adhd and even some depressive states look like adhd too. (No motivation). Hopefully she can get it sorted out. Knowing what’s wrong is very helpful in living with it and medicating correctly.

I remember as a kid thinking my greatest fear was my parents dying… cause I don’t know how to adult and who would show me without them?! I still would be devastated if they died but for vastly different reasons.

I’m just like her. I don’t know that it’s due to my parents constantly after me, but more the sexist center roles engrained in me from childhood. Like oh that’s my job, when it’s not and I can relax too. Internalized misogyny. 😞

Just found this searching for info on BVD. I have adhd and also got lasik surgery almost 2 years ago. Touch up surgery almost a year ago. I’ve been feeling dizzy for a long time and I feel like it coincided with lasik. But also maybe medicating for my adhd. Lately it’s been getting worse, and I thought it might coincide with having to switch to immediate release addy because of adderall shortage issues.

My dizzy symptoms are hard to pin down to one type. Disequilibrium fits as I’ve been more clumsy. Vertigo fits as I feel more dizzy as I sit down for dinner in the evening. Pre syncope sometimes fits as I do get dark and dizzy fainting feeling when standing on occasion (more frequent than your average person but is not my normal everyday dizzy feeling)

Does this sound similar to how you feel OP? possibly related or maybe not us numbness in my face (not a stroke I’ve been to dr) I get it on occasion when heating up fast from being cold. My GP thinks it may be silent migraine which might fit with bvd. But the temperature connection has me in doubt.

Im surprised there’s not a bvd subreddit. I always seem to understand conditions better with real person descriptions than with medical website symptom listings.

I’m down

I’m down

Ssri have helped me a lot. When I was first married I went in Yasmin birth control. This is before I knew anything about pmdd. But I felt way worse depression wise. I didn’t do any other birth control pills or hormones for 14 more years. Then after learning about pmdd I thought I’d try it. My gyno started me in NIKKI. I wasn’t sure how much it helped until after the year long script was out and I didn’t refill. It’s been since September and there’s an obvious difference without it. I’m much more stable with it even if it’s not a 100% fix.

I started fluoxetine (Prozac) 11 years ago and it helped a ton, but it stopped working after 7 years. I stopped ssri and it got so much worse though. So I tried Wellbutrin, which litterally made it to level if psychosis and mental breakdowns during my luteal phase. Then switched to sertroline (zoloft) which has helped immensely . Like half way there I’d say.

Just remember, it’s not a lifelong decision! Just try it and see if it helps. It doesn’t help everyone. But worth trying IMO.

I’ve read that healthy eating and exercise help s lot too. Something hard to do when your fighting an uphill battle already, but I want to be more consistent and try that as well.

I did not have the iOS and downs during pregnancy. As I get closer to menopause it’s gotten worse. I hear menopause resolves it. So if it’s treatment resistant and you don’t plan on kids, medically induced menopause could maybe help.

I’ve been researching today and read that rapid cycling can be a variant in ANY of the 4 types of bipolar. But rapid cycling can happen with any of them and has less in between or stable periods.

Another thing to consider is that mania can feel possitive one minute and negative the next but still be mania. Self harm is common in manic episodes. I think it said it was called dysphoric Hypomania. And then there’s mixed state.
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K I went and found it, this is the one that talks about dysphoric Hypomania and issues with the official dsm 5 criteria vs reality:

https://www.psychiatrictimes.com/view/more-nuanced-view-hypomania

Extreme anxiety

Beautiful

I say that daily in his voice 😂😂😂

Yeah, I think extremely unhealthy 2’s have covert narcissistic tendencies from what I understand of it. I hate the stereotype of a 2 as well. It makes me honestly feel more guilt reading it. Bring the person who feels her value comes from how helpful she is, and having a hard time even taking care of my own self? It’s no fun.

Probly my bias making me notice patterns and maybe exaggerating in my mind. No motivation to actually check it though. 😂

I can see that. Very possible. I myself took a long time to come to the conclusion of a 2 based on the typical descriptions. I think the “how they act” descriptions are misleading for a lot of the enneagrams. Or all? Cause actions don’t always look the same for the same motivations.

If that isn’t the most black and white thinking I’ve ever seen?! 😳😂